Fear?

A few days ago, I had a very mild heart problem (or was it a heart attack/stroke, I don't know what medical jargon I should be using) early in the morning at about 3.30am while I was in bed all alone. And lately, I've had this "death" thoughts lingering in my mind and the risk of sounding painfully morbid, I can't shake this feeling that I might die soon. Why do I think this? I know these thoughts aren't from GOD. and I certainly hope it's not true, anyway. I'd love to be around to watch my children succeed in life and be proud of them. And maybe even to curdle and watch my grandchildren grow up.

I've been doing some fairly deep soul-searching to try and get to the bottom of all my worries in life especially that concern my aging parents, children, financial et cetera in my brain. A new one, this "death" thing looming over me, seems to be added to my already burdened brain.

Why do I have this feeling of uncertainty? Is it fear? What am I afraid of? Was it because I saw those sick and some helpless people yesterday when I sent my sister-in-law Winnie to the hospital? I'm still trying to figure that one out but for now, I must continually give myself and my thoughts to GOD and trust that HE has a plan for my life.

Warmest Regards,